I always knew that when I got better I would write about my journey to inspire others. If you are suffering, set your sights on using your suffering later to help others. Imagine yourself getting better and helping others with what you learned from your challenges. Think of how Christ suffered and the fullness that the seeds of his suffering continue to bring.
On August 5th, 2018, I found a fortune cookie fortune laying face up in the grass. It read: “The seeds of an idea you planted long ago are about to blossom.” And on August 17th, 2018, two weeks later, my chronic psychosis lifted.
Psychosis means that you are not perceiving reality accurately and, if you are lucky enough to be able to get care, you take antipsychotics so you can still function normally in society. To me a full recovery is this: I don’t have psychosis or mood swings, for the first time in years.
What prompted this blog? I want to write to reach people with what worked for me for free in a blog before writing a book about it. It is the information I want out there. That God wants out there. It is my calling to help people who are losing God, their health, and their sense of well-being and hope. All of these things are interconnected.
Know this about my unique experience of Christianity: I have sharpened my deep sense of Christ’s goodness through fellowship with Christians from all over the world. I speak 5 languages and read in those languages. Russian Christians live and breathe the Holy Spirit by the hour, if not by the minute, and wove into my being, every part of it, the glory and conviction of the Resurrection and Christ’s goodness. And the faith that we are not abandoned to our suffering and that we are meant to be healed.
God gives us not only medicine and therapy, – tools which are undoubtedly helpful for many and which I certainly have used – but also the Son and the fellowship of believers and the Holy Spirit.
Once we harness all of these elements we are unstoppable.